THE PRICE OF BEING A CAREGIVER

Want to know what is the highest price I had to pay being in the elderly care industry?

People talked about how hard the caregiver’s jobs are. That it takes a special kind of person to do it. But have you ever wondered what is the greatest price a caregiver has to pay? Oh yes, there is a price to pay for whoever chooses this industry.

There are two categories of caregivers. The first is the family members and yes, they do have to pay a price for caring for their loved ones. The second is the industry professionals, like me and the hired caregivers and nurses.

Let’s tackle the first group family and relative caregivers. There are many levels of price that they pay. Among them are giving up their jobs, careers, time and even life to care for their loved ones. Sometime ago a family 8 siblings, seven daughters and one son, came to see me about their dementia mother. They liked the place I was managing, and they wanted to check their mother in. And I said,” Wait we need to assess her over a few days to see if she is manageable type of dementia.”  As it turns out their mom was walking all the time, trying to escape and can be a bit violent. To cap it all she constantly looking for knife and scissors. 

My observation was that she has more conditions besides dementia, and I told the sisters that no home can manage her unless she has been properly evaluated by psychiatrist. I also told her that her mom’s behavior seems to indicate that she needs more that the two types of dementia medication given now. Then the daughter opened up and told me all the information she was trying to hide. According to her one sister quit her job and got depressed taking care of her mother after a few years. Then passed on to another daughter who is not married, and she got so stressed up that she just drove her mother to a cheap nursing home and left her there. All the other siblings had tried but just cannot take it.

For caregivers who are family members they may even pay the price of their own sanity. I found another solution for them but it is not a road they are prepared to travel. I told them very likely only with full medication management, in short heavily sedate her, that they can manage her. Still it is not a foolproof solution. Nobody fully understand for the mind is both a playground and a minefield.

What about industry professionals, what is the price they have to pay? Let me share with you the highest price I had to pay. I can’t be there when my father was sick, dying and died.  All because I was helping to manage and operate a new centre for a Harvest Christian Assembly church. We were short handed and we had to deal with many high care cases and worse of all I was given a ‘special church friend’ who was dying from cancer who needed super high care to manage.

Now, again as usual, (yes a double oxymoronic expression here) the family members lied about his condition saying he is okay, he can walk and eat. I was told that the tracheostomy is very easy to manage. But when I went to Klang General Hospital, the specialist told me an entirely different story. I was told he can hardly walk for his back pain was excruciating, he needed constant suction of phlegm, to be precised every hour for 24 hours. The care needed was so demanding that our staffing was simply insufficient. Not to mention that his cancer stank. The smell even drew in flies in drove. When my dad died on 16 September 2018, I cannot even go back. When my dad was sick for 3 weeks prior to his death, I could not be there. I depended on my trusted friends.

Now, I understand why my mom who was a nurse often gets condemned for not attending closed relatives’ funerals. My mom always said to my father, “cannot simply just change, there are people who are depending on me.”

But what about me?